rebelliousmisfit

I grope blindly for confort. For a confidence with my secrets to share. For a pair of open arms, and a set of knowing eyes that care. Along you came to take my burnden. To let me tell you my thoughts and secrets. You listened and comforted me best you could, and told me to learn from my regrets. I love you for it. Thank you.

I am dark. I kill all light. Covering up all good. Causing panic and fright. I am dark. I cover your crime. Hide the unwanted childs tears. Confuse your sense of time. I am dark. The thief of the day. Im coming soon. So run and hide away.

You are the light in my world. A paradise in my doom. My reason for living. Darling, I'll follow you to the tomb. You light up my eyes. How you make them shine! My sweet, loving light. You are forever mine.

Love is weird. Love is a freak. Love comes in every way: wild, reckless, crazy, meek. Love empowers. Love defines. Love is for the rich and poor. Love never leaves our minds. Love is the thing I long to hear. Love is the thing i most fear

this is the beginning your brand new start were minds are open and so are the hearts anything can hapen your slate is clean honey think long and hard you can do anything, now be keen this is new i wish you the besst this is your introduction your first and final test

I'll hate you today. I'll hate you tomorrow. I'll blame you for my tears, blood loss, and sorrow. You made me a freak, and want me to fit in. Being such a fucking hypocrite, should be a punishable sin. You dont know whay I do. Or the reasons I cry. You dont know my self-harming thoughts, or how much I want to die.

In a moment of weakness, I locked my self inside my room. I carved 2 letter in a series of 4. HA. HA FOR HATE. For everything I'm not good enough for, and for all the stupid useless tears I'v cried. All the times I'v said I hated something, but right now its just 2 letters. all the laughs at my expese all the secret inside jokes im not aloud into. all the stupid things normal 13 year olds do while i carve my wrist with a box cutter. who gets the last hateful laugh now. HA HA HA HA HA.

my wings are broken and burned far beyond repair so i hide in the darkness drowning in despair the light now drenched and taken the darkness overtaken all there was no one there to catch me from my trecherous fall i sit there scared and broken to lost to even care hopin someone will find me yet knowing i better not even dare

the ballerina dances to the notes of a song laughing singin dancing smiling never knowing that anything was wrong the song ended the notes faded and cracked the beauty of the girl, dead a sad, heartbreaking fact

im the plague in egypt the nonbelieving cryptic the masked thief the killer of the chief the cry in the night the horrible sight the ruthless liar whos life hangs on a wire the girl empty inside with her cuts open wide im just a poor emo girl

Red for the blood of those who are bullied, beaten and bashed by haters. Orange for the fire when all our belongings are burned because we left the world. Yellow for the stars that we wish upon to be accepted for who we are. Green for the glow of when God finally accepts us into heaven. Blue for the streams of tears that drip onto our grave. Indigo for the selfish who cared for themselves and not others. Violet for the peace that was settled once we were gone.

I'm sorry for being imperfect. I'm sorry for my personality. I'm sorry for being rebellious. I'm sorry for being stubborn. I'm sorry for being a bitch. I'm sorry for being a sinner. I'm sorry for being a complainer. I'm sorry for always cursing. I'm sorry for being complicated. I'm sorry for being bisexual. I'm sorry for liking girls. I'm sorry I'm not Christian. I'm sorry I'm not like you. I'm sorry I'll end up in Hell. I'm sorry I was made this way. I'm sorry I was ever born. I'm sorry for being me.

That one friend you love That one friend you adore That one friend that's amazing That you'd do anything for. That one friend that makes you laugh That one friend that makes you cry That one friend that doesn't care Whether I'm straight or I'm bi. That one friend who you can trust That one friend who's always there That one friend who'll never leave Who's like a gem 'cause she's so rare.

Have you heard about that girl? Who had attempted and tried Finally the fifth time She committed suicide. She locked herself in the bathroom To drive away the pain, She took a razor blade And cut deep into her veins. Her mother walked upstairs And knocked on the door, Only to find her daughter Lying helplessly on the floor. She ran to her daughter, Picked her up and cried Screaming and shouting "Why God, Why?" She called the paramedics And as they were taking her away, She asked herself what she could've done To make her daughter stay.

No one ever asked about the cuts on her arms Hidden with long sleeves, people asked her if she was warm She thought they didn't notice, that nobody cared But with dark clothes and long sleeves, how could people not stare? Days passed, then months and years, All that time she held back the tears So many cuts and so many scars The pain that she felt took her too far They covered her arms and covered her thighs She prayed and said, "God just let me die." Why would she throw away such a beautiful life? She felt unloved and alone as she plunged with her knife. One last time--she collapsed to the floor, The pain and misery seeped to he

I'm only human, I'm only me There's another side that you don't see I've starved, I've carved into my skin, Hoping to defeat the monster within It eats me up, inside and out Clouds my mind, fills it with doubt I'm trying so hard to stay strong, You say I'm worth it, but I think you're wrong You're trying to help me, but I push you away 'Cause I know it won't let me believe what you say There's more to the story than what you know There's more to me than what I show I'm trying so hard to hold on and fight So keep me near and hold me tight

What do you do when your world's falling down And no hands reach out to save you? What do you do when tears fall from a frown And when you think of yourself you say 'Who'? What do you do when no one sees your pain And people seem to make it worse? What do you do when frustration must be refrained And every further step hurts? What do you do when you feel like falling down And just want to leave life behind....

another sleep less night another nightmare locked away memories coming to haunt once again dreams of self terror haunting me taunting me never leaving me no matter how hard i try they come back as before waking me up in the night to an even worse reality breaking me from my havan, my dreams corrupting them twisting them into something diabolicle to remind me of my past to remind me of my mistakes to remind me of things out of my control of things that were to my control taunting me showing me i cudve ended it i cudve stopped it cudve made it not happen the actions the memories the dreams the nightmares cudve stoppe